But it's Acceptance that just won't come to me. Don't think I haven't tried. I wrote a book about the stroke--The Tales of a Stroke Patient. Not enough. I write a blog called the same name as the book. Not enough. I was leading a stroke support group in the hospital. Not enough. I spoke at various forums and medical facilities about strokes. Still not enough. When is it that I will "accept" the stroke? Maybe never.
So here am I again, the stroke survivor, with ten resolutions for the new year. Maybe this will lead me to Acceptance. My random forced optimism is just that, an effort to see if this post will get me there. So here are my resolutions, in no particular order except the last, the things I want to happen most:
http://stroketales.blogspot.com/2016_11_28_archive.html/) I usually set the alarm to "Stop," but no more. The best way to take this blood thinner is to take it the same time every day. I've been having ups and downs on my INR, the test that determines clotting, but maybe this alarm set to "Snooze" will help. The alarm sound unnerves me!
http://psychcentral.com/news/2013/06/23/nearly-1-in-4-stroke-patients-suffer-ptsd-symptoms/56321.html) People that are angry-spirited and controlling will continue being angry-spirited and controlling because they are satisfied with themselves and don't see a reason to change. People can only change if the "want" is there. Without it, the success rate is nil.
3. I won't be a shopaholic in 2017. There's nothing I need aside from food and drugstore stuff and random entertainment. I have enough clothes and (see previous) shoes. I used to get super-charged when I would go shopping before my stroke. But now it's tedious, stretching the functioning arm or leg to assist the other side. Bottom line: I have enough. (Here's an interesting article on shopaholics: http://www.webmd.com/mental-health/addiction/features/when-too-much-shopping-becomes-a-problem_)
Christmas is Sunday and Hanukah begins Christmas Eve, but I want to get a head start on this post so Happy New Year to all!